” When you come to the edge of all the light you have and you must take a step into the darkness of the unknown, believe that one of two things will happen to you: either there will be something solid for you to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly.” Patric Overton
I’m still teaching the Moving Into Wholeness workshops at the Grace House and the women there are making interesting realizations in recognizing their habits of perception. We are continuing to work together with partners, exploring and sensing the bodies inner in-pluses.
One woman realized, while dancing with her partner, that she is scared to listen to her own instincts. While dancing with a partner, with her eyes closed, she felt at ease but the moment her partner stepped away, allowing the opportunity for her to move on her own, she began to feel uncomfortable. She started to question her own choices. She began to look inside herself and found it extremely uncomfortable to allow herself to choose. She did not trust herself. She realized that she succumbs to others and their desires. Her own wants and desires are insignificant and unworthy compared to others.
Other women had the opposite reaction. Some women found themselves wanting to always be in control, even at their partners expense. This lead us to the question of, “what does it take for one to become a good guide?” and their answer was, “one has to become a good listener.” They spoke of their situations in “everyday life”, with their friendships, their lovers and their families. One woman commented that she finds herself holding on so much, terrified of letting go to the fear of losing control”, to the point where she doesn’t even hear and sense what her partner is trying to communicate. She said, “it’s time for me to let some of that control go, it’s time for me to be a good listener.”
I love how I am developing relationships with these beautiful women during these workshops. I try to enter the space without judgement. I know nothing about their past, only the present. I see women taking control and taking on responsibility. I see women owning up to their own power, their own strength. I see them beginning to trust their own choices and question their reactions and perceptions with control, intelligence and dignity. I see women letting go, finding freedom, finding trust and giving support to others, all through listening and coming back “home” to the body. Finding courage and strength in the body, dancing to find peace and freedom, allowing oneself to feel comfort in their body, brings self esteem, love, and courage in ones heart. I am grateful to witness these realizations and I thank each of them for their courage to let go.